“I love the person I’ve become because I’ve fought to become her.’ I read that today. I also listened to a podcast on the “tired of thinking about drinking” blog many of you know because of her 100 day challenge. Overall, I’m thinking that punishing myself for not doing a particular program like AA to maintain sobriety is so stupid and pointless. There is no “right” way to stay sober. It is personal and subjective and not open to criticism. Like anyone’s choices in life, sobriety is my own. And like the respect I grant others in their daily lives, so must I give myself the same amount of acceptance, tolerance and patience. My sobriety began the moment I decided I wanted it. That simple. Not a moment sooner. At my ladies AA meeting the other night, someone said, “If love coulda gotten me sober…well I’d been sober a long time ago.” Exactly . We must choose the moment. Or rather (because I believe in higher power) the moment was destined to happen when it did, because I was brought to it by the Grace of God (or whatever you want to call the force pulsing in us, above us, around us, thru us, the energy that exists only in the present moment). For me, God is a good name for it. But I’m getting off track. What is true is that any person who WANTS it, can have it. And any way you figure out how to want it more than you want your addiction, is ok. Anyway you decide how to stay Here–as the blogger known as Belle says–is a good way. The paths to truth are many, as is the path toward recovery. This road I’m on is my own. I’m a trail blazer. I’m taking the road less traveled, I am sure. Life like recovery is unique and special and precious. I won’t waste another second doubting my own recovery and the ways I’ve made a path and manage to stay on it.